Future Plans

I have been thinking a lot about the future lately.  There is so much uncertainty in our life right now not knowing if Richie will have a job next fall let alone where we might be living.  It is unsettling.  I recently started to consider the idea of going back to school to get a masters degree, but not in theatre/scenic design.  I have really been interested in interior design lately and sometimes day-dream of running away to Toronto to learn from my favorite Canadian designer (if I didn't have three young children, of course).  I have supported my husband for a while, and we have talked about it being my turn.  In December I met with a faculty member from the interior design department here at Utah State to find out what I would need to do to get into the program.  He was very helpful, but also very honest about how hard it would be to do with little kids because of the commitment required to the program.  I was pretty excited about the program and the idea of getting back into school, although I wasn't sure how we would afford it, but I thought we would figure that out when we really needed to.  

The thing is, I like being a stay-at-home-mom.  It is a choice we have made for our family and it is good for us.  My reasons for wanting to go to graduate school don't have anything to do with what other people think of my role as a woman in society, it is something I want to do for myself; I value education and I am really interested in the subject.  But, when I talk to people sometimes I feel like I have to justify my choice to stay home and mention that I am thinking about going to graduate school, and I don't like that.  I recently saw a professor who taught at Utah State for a couple years that I hadn't seen in about ten years.  When Professor K. R. asked what I was up to and I said I am a stay-at-home-mom the judgement coming from her was very apparent.  She obviously did not approve but pretended to care and asked what the ages are, and then seemed flabbergasted when I told her the ages of my THREE children.  I was really annoyed and offended by her reaction, but I decided to just stop talking to her, because I have many people in my life that support my choices and they are the ones I want to be with, anyway. 

Well, it turns out it isn't exactly the right time to go to graduate school for me anyway because I will be really busy this fall doing something else.

So, the future is still uncertain, but we do know a new member will join our family in August!  Graduate school will still happen, it will just have to wait a little while longer.